I am alive yet I’m feeling dead
Wonder if there’s any of God’s grace left in my blank heart
Wonder if there’s any love left for me
Human are stupid
And indeed I am stupid for running
Running from a love that offered to me
But I am such a dirty slut
That don’t deserves such love
But why are they saying that I still have a chance?
Is it a lie? Or is it true?
I am a player, that playing my own life
My ignorance proven to hurt me
My sanity of life proven to fool me
And yet,
I saw many people that happy
They happy for their life, their richness, their love
I envy them,
I cursed myself for being such a fool
I cursed my life and my existence
21 November 2008 01.03 AM
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